That cheesey, rosey, loverly day...

So it's Valentine's Day, yes? I'm in the kitchen making up some cookies for a work baby shower tomorrow (third baby event of 2012 people, 3rd and it's barely halfway through February!). I'm listening to the Adele station on Pandora and I think it believes I'm a sad mopey without a Valentine (vs. a happy more power to me single Valentine!). But this song came on and it perfectly describes the beginning of my relationship with Dan (except my previous relationship being beautiful, cause it wasn't. Just dysfunctional and he never would have loved me how I needed and I'd never have loved him how he needed).

A Fine Frenzy--Near To You

He and I had something beautiful
But so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved him so but I let him go
'Cause I knew he'd never love me back

Such pain as this
Shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss,
Still a little bit delirious

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

You and I have something different
And I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard
To get back to who I used to be

He's disappearing
Fading suddenly
I'm so close to being yours
Won't you stay with me
Please

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I belong
Where you are

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
Though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

Yet, I'm better near to you.

Tender fake tattoo times from the beginning...

 

How incredibly grateful that the Dan found me and he helped me heal and find myself again. I can't imagine what my life would have been without having found him and myself again. He breathed life into me.

PS. my friend Diana has been posting engagement stories about her friends leading up to today. Mine was published a few days ago. Go here to check it out!