Six Months

Today it's been six months since this whole sha-bang went down...

That's right, getting sealed for time and eternity. It's kind of a big deal : )
That day is such a blur of emotions now, I wish I could have had a video camera inside my mind so I could play it all back later. All of the emotions and thoughts running through my mind.
For me, my wedding day was everything I could have hoped for. I married the man I love, in God's house, and by the right authority so we could be together forever. I love the perspective that gives me in my marriage. Our relationship isn't just for this life, but for eternity. If there's an issue, we better deal with it!
It was an unbelievable day. Happy and all that other good stuff that's supposed to happen on wedding days. But I do have some wishes...

I wish I could have spent a few minutes right after the ceremony alone with Dan. I was in a dressing room with my mom when the realization that Dan was mine and I was his for eternity hit me and I finally started really crying. I like my mom, so it wasn't bad, but I wish I could have been with Dan and shared that moment with him.

I wish I had paid more attention to family members. Everything is so fast, the whole day is full of special moments and I feel like I didn't give those special moments to family members enough. It was a lot of trying to move quickly and keep on schedule instead of focusing on family which is what I think a wedding is all about. Love and family.

I wish at the reception I had spent more time with the guests instead of on the dance floor. But I don't wish this one too much because I had a blast dancing with my friends and husband and if other guests wanted to be with me or Dan, they could have come and danced. : )

I really wish I had danced with my Grandad. There were maybe two slow songs other than the "official" dances and then I was leaving and all of a sudden he grabbed me for a quick little spin for a picture before I ran into the night. I went back to the hotel room and cried for missing the opportunity.

I think a wedding day is a hard balance. I was a firm believer that a wedding is about the couple, and I still think that the focus should be on them. It's their day, their joy and new union. However, looking back, I wish I had invited more family into that joy. That I had paused for a minute to give a more meaningful hug, whisper a more heartfelt thanks, share an expression of love.
But I lived it. A wedding day requires one to be in the moment and really live all of those emotions. And on that day I swam in those emotions and tried my best to follow them. My wishes only come after the experience and looking back after 6 months. I don't want to call them regrets because I don't regret my wedding day in any way. I just wish I could do some things differently if I were getting hitched again, which won't be happening, so they'll just stay wishes and advice I'll give my children when their day comes... in the extremely far away future.

I look at that last picture and I think it sums up the whole day. Ridiculously happy to be who we truly are with each other. And who we are is generally ridiculous.

And I'm happy with that.